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From: cj
, 103 months, post #81 |
"... mods can see ip's..."
Trusted Users see the same user info as the guests (no IP
addresses) - that seems to be reserved for admins for those "as
needed" cases.
"... I personally prefer the guest name as I don't like committing
to nicknames. Because I'll end up changing my mind later and
wanting a new name..."
As long as you're not registering your nickname, you can change
your alias as often as you like (just don't pretend to be someone
else), and still retain some anonymity as a guest (with a
perhaps-unique alias).
And you're still free to post as a just plain old "guest". I was
merely pointing out that sometimes doing so can make visitors think
that you're the same "guest" as all the others.
"... of the opinion that threads are more fun when people are
allowed to stray a little off topic now and again, and
conversations aren't micromanaged, but that's me."
Me too. Ever see how many posts I TAKE off-topic, (even a few where
I then have to chide myself for doing so)? As for the
micromanagement... yeah, it's a give and take thing. A very fine
line sometimes. We want to keep the site somewhat comfortable &
discussions civil and non-threatening, and try to keep it
safe/legal for teen eyes.
This started off as a thread that could be quite educational for a
teen dealing with the gender question... but the language being
used recently started to taint this as a thread I would want to
share with younger eyes. Still not enough of an issue for me to
really want to remove posts or issues cautions.
We each look at our posts and those of others through different
filters and against different measures. We all try to do the best
we can. And yes, both of you were in the right for calling each
other (and me) out. It's adds to the discussion... not necessarily
of this topic, but of the Message Board discussions here.
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From: cj
, 103 months, post #82 |
Forestier - 2, 3, and 4 are close for me... but the whole thing
still doesn't define me quite right. I think my desires are
changing, save for one thing - I just don't feel quite right in my
own skin.
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From: guest
, 103 months, post #83 |
Not to detract from this thread any further but I love you CJ, you
deal with issues with such finesse and diplomacy, and it seems like
you try to actually look at things from the various different
perspectives of the people voicing their opinions and empathize
with where they might be coming from. You have true leadership
qualities, and you're my hero of the day.
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From: cj
, 103 months, post #84 |
Thank you. I'm honored.
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From: guest (Trance)
, 103 months, post #85 |
Message deleted by cj. unnecessary - copied from another thread. |
From: guest (Hysteria)
, 103 months, post #86 |
Message deleted by cj. accusatory without substantiation. |
From: guest
, 103 months, post #87 |
Message deleted by cj. personal attack |
From: guest
, 103 months, post #88 |
Message deleted by cj. personal attack |
From: cj
, 103 months, post #89 |
Message deleted by cj. re-opening thread to guest posts |
From: cj
, 103 months, post #90 |
Now that we've all had to time to cool down a bit...
Thread is now re-opened to guest posts. Please keep the discussion civil. Be polite, courteous, and
respectful.
Please follow the Posting Guidelines (which you can right below
the "Add a New Message to This Thread" text-entry box).
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From: guest
, 103 months, post #91 |
I HAVEN'T COOLED DOWN, I'M STILL HOPPING MAD.
FUCK ALL OF YOU!
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Haha sorry I just couldn't help myself/.
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From: Forestier
, 103 months, post #92 |
Found this message on Quora
Rod Fleming, Author of 'Why Men Made God'
'Do transgender people sometimes have sexual motives to
transition?'
(I am editing this answer because it needs strengthening. )
Yes indeed they do.
The established science on this holds that there are two completely
distinct routes into transsexualism, as far as Male to Females are
concerned. This dichotomy is directly observable and has been
statistically and otherwise proven over and over again. One type
presents very young, generally before puberty, although they may
present as late as their 20s, forming a potential overlap with the
second type. They will have been noted for their femininity as boy
children and nay have cross-dressed, though a lot depends on how
repressive their surroundings are. This type is exclusively, and
strongly, attracted to men. There is a clear relationship between
this type and very feminine gay men.
This type is today generally known as 'early onset androphile',
'Blanchard HSTS' or 'transkids' (because they so often present as
children.) In the past they were known as 'Type One' or 'True'
transsexuals. I will use the convention 'HSTS' to save my fingers.
The other type presents later. They will have had typical boy
childhoods, be very masculine, probably achieved well in masculine
areas, are probably married and have children by the time they
present and, at least prior to transition, will not have shown any
attraction to men. These are called 'late onset non-androphile' or
'Blanchard autogynephile', usually shortened to 'AGP'. They were
once known as 'Type 2' or 'pseudo' transsexuals. I'll use the
convention AGP.
The differences between these two and their consistency confirms
the existence of the two types. (Note: there are only two types
although both show variation. This has been used by some people to
suggest there are more than two. This is not the case.) Final
confirmation of this came in 2010 when MRI-based studies conducted
by Rametti et al on screened HSTS found that these had brains that
were similar to women's, while a parallel study led by Savic and
Arver in Sweden on screened AGPs showed they had brains
'indistinguishable from men's'. Both these were properly conducted
scientific studies which tested only subjects who had not begun
hormone treatment and used proper controls. (A level of scientific
competency that is rare in this field.) These results confirm what
we known from statistical and other analysis, and which is known by
anyone who interacts with trans women: there are two types.
Ray Blanchard has shown in numerous papers that both these types
involve sexualised motivation. HSTS are sexually attracted to men
from childhood. Their desire to be beautiful women is driven by
this attraction; and in fact it's obvious even to the lay observer.
These are typical, sexually active women who like men. Their
desire, in other words, is hetero-normative.
AGPs are far more complex. Blanchard found that they were sexually
or romantically attracted to themselves as women. Essentially they
have a second female personality which they will increasingly feel
comfortable in, to the point that they transition and become that
personality. They are likely to have had a history of secret
cross-dressing. Frequently this involves masturbation. I have come
across narratives wherein the person fantasised about playing both
roles sexually but became more fixated on the woman's one; how
common this is I don't know.
AGPs present later, usually in their 30s or 40s. There is no
evidence that they became conscious of themselves as girls or women
before puberty; this is when the cross-dressing and fantasy begins,
and when the second personality will appear. The individual may
work very hard to suppress these elements of their sexuality, and
many succeed; we simply do not know how many AGPs live their lives
as men.
Both the HSTS and AGP types are therefore, at least in large part,
motivated by sexuality. While HSTS is a normative orientation that
is relatively simple to understand, AGP is different, far more
complicated and many people have difficulty understanding it. But
both are simply a part of normal human variation.
The idea that transgender is somehow not related to sexual
orientation comes from two sources, both of which have fed into a
ridiculous level of obscurantism and are driven by politics. The
first of these comes from gay men. The current Western gay movement
seeks to suppress all forms of femininity in men and pretend that
all male-attracted men are hunky macho men. They have spent decades
trying to eradicate HSTS trans women by turning them into gay men,
with the aid of quacks like Ken Zucker and many others, alongside
religious and other influences.
The issue here is that the modern gay male movement seeks to show
that is it not feminine to be attracted to men, and so there must
be a divorce between sexual attraction and gender. But this is a
political aspiration, developed in the academic Trivial Pursuits
societies that have no relationship to the real world. What this
seeks to establish is that liking men doesn't make one a woman --
which clearly, HSTS torpedo, by their very existence. Thus the gay
men seek to suppress HSTS women. (The real question should be 'How
many gay men are actually women pretending to be men?' -- and lest
this question offend, let us remember that that is exactly what
Zucker et al have spent their lives doing -- conditioning straight
trans women to think they are, and to live as, gay men. QED.)
The AGPs have another take on this. They, quite reasonably, dislike
being labelled as fetishistic cross-dressers. To be fair to both
them and Blanchard (who has ever been blunt in his language), he
did, in several papers, point out that there are many forms that
autogynephilia can take and sexualised cross-dressing is just one.
However, sadly, a bigoted society hears 'crossdresser' and makes up
its own mind.
The core of AGP is not the sexual gratification but the existence
of the feminine alter ego. HSTS do not have this. There is only one
person inside her head and that person is a woman. The AGP is not
like that. She has two persons and because one is a heterosexual
man and the other is a woman, the first becomes obsessed -- or if
you like, falls in love with -- the second. Hence the term
autogynephilia, which means 'in love with oneself as a woman' or
maybe we might say 'in love with the woman inside oneself.' Clearly
this love can have both purely romantic and sexual manifestations,
and this probably accounts for the proportion of AGPs who are
analloerotic (asexual).
AGPs who are attracted to men only become so as their woman
personality establishes herself and takes over control. In their
narratives, they frequently allude to 'wanting to try sex as a
woman' or 'wondering what it would be like to have a date with a
man'. HSTS don't have this issue because they are having sex with
men as soon as they are able to, and have absolutely no sexual
desire for women either inside or outside themselves.
So why do HSTS not just live as gay men and AGPs as crossdressers
or crossdreamers? The answer is gender dysphoria. This is a sense
of increasing discomfort with the gender of one's body. It can be
so intense that it leads to suicide. It is this that drives that
final commitment to transition full time. Both HSTS and AGPs suffer
it, although there is some evidence that the forms are not quite
the same; this is to be expected, since the HSTS is not internally
conflicted -- she has only one personality to deal with.
We often see it claimed that dysphoria is the cause of transsex,
but this is not true. That would be like saying toothache is the
cause of dentistry, when in fact there is an underlying problem,
bacterial infection of the teeth. Dysphoria is a symptom, not a
cause; but just as sneezing can be caused by a virus or by an
allergy, dysphoria has two, mutually exclusive, causes.
We also see it claimed that there is a 'female essence' that is
separate from sexuality and concomitant dysphoria, but this has
never been established outside of the personal narratives of AGPs,
which can never be verified. (HSTS personal narratives are easily
verified: you ask their childhood friends. They'll confirm she was
always a girl. This never happens with AGP.)
So the two types are established to exist and have their root
causes in sexuality; they are not the same but end in similar
results and in both cases, the solution is easy -- transition.
Finally, I am have put a page up on my website at
http://rodfleming.com/links/with links to the papers I mention and
other sources. Quora does not pay me and I do not have time to add
each link in each article I write here. So in future I'll just put
a link to my links page at the foot of each answer.
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From: guest (Kathie)
, 103 months, post #93 |
Sorry -- I have been sans-internet for a while. Looks like a lot
has happened here during my deafness. I don't feel like reading it
all so I'm just responding to that last post.
Interesting. I fit neither of those two patterns. I had lots of
T-feelings early on but, due to social pressures (both at school
and at home), I worked real hard at FAKING being a guy. And, I
often failed miserably. It was as if, no matter how hard I tried,
everyone knew.
I had almost no sexuality (save fantasies of being female and
dating men) pre-transition. I had no attraction toward women or men
in real life, but I learned to fake that, too. By the time I had
faked it enough to end up living with someone and engaged, I
realized I couldn't go on any further. The rest, as they say, is
history.
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From: guest
, 103 months, post #94 |
I don't think I fit either category in the quoted Rod Fleming
material precisely. I'm closer to the second but the desire to be
female started young -- definitely there by age 5 -- though there
wasn't a trans-kid set of behaviors. I'd guess I have more of a
stereotypically male brain, and I'm more attracted to women than to
men.
Plausible explanation of the historic hostility between gay men and
the transgendered. It's papered over a lot these days with the
whole LGBTQ alphabet soup, but I'd guess it's still there.
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From: Forestier
, 103 months, post #95 |
Found this website
I am definitly a crossdreamer
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From: Forestier
, 103 months, post #96 |
Kathie: "The rest, as they say, is history."
But I do not know this history. In page 2, I asked you:
"Kathie,
Are you a transwoman? If so, how do you relate to the diverse
aspects of the OP? For example, that your experience was not what
you expected (in which respects?), or the desire you sometimes
still had a penis."
Both the OP and Hysteria seemed to think they made a mistake
transitionning. Do you feel they are right?
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From: guest (Kathie)
, 103 months, post #97 |
To answer direct questions directly: Yes. And I definitely did not
make a mistake. I am much happier now than I ever have been before
and I now understand what it is that people enjoy about sex (never
found it enjoyable at all in "the other role"). I never desire
having a penis. In fact I often have thought to myself that I have
no idea what it would feel like to have one -- it often seems like
I just had a bad dream once that I had one.
I can say that I often wished that I hadn't needed to do what I
did. It made life much more difficult -- my parents and I often
disagree and I occasionally have an old name problem haunt me (even
after many years) and I missed all those young years (teens and
earlier) that I would have loved to have had. But, given the
circumstances, I have no doubt in my decision.
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From: guest (Hysteria)
, 103 months, post #98 |
I kinda envy you, Kathie. I'm not planning to detransition, but I
wish I had half as much confidence in my identity in terms of
gender as you do. My self image is a fuzzy mess, and that makes me
feel awkward doing a lot of things and generally unsatisfied with a
lot of relationships.
Anyway, it's worth noting that a lot of the stuff posted above -
Including Ray Blanchard's works - Is quite dated and has been
medically discredited in most circles. The binary between true
transsexualism and autogynephilia has basically been dismissed as
an incredibly over-simplistic understanding for a set of issues of
tremendous diversity and complexity. (I sure as hell never thought
I had a "feminine alter ego" at any point, whatever that means.)
Anyway, I realized I missed a question from way earlier.
"The OP's author wrote: “People treat me in ways I haven’t
experienced since I was in high school - being condescending,
acting superior, and not taking me seriously.” Did you experience
something like that?"
The way I interact with and am treated by close friends hasn't
really changed at all since my transition, but strangers definitely
act differently and sometimes a little crappily. One weird thing
I've noticed is that when shopping for groceries, sometimes dudes
running the till will comment on the food I'm buying ("This doesn't
look very healthy, does it?", etc) which would never have happened
before my transition.
Some men are also a lot more patronizing whenever I get annoyed by
things, and tend to talk over me in arguments without listening to
what I'm saying. This is especially true for when I'm playing video
games.
I also never used to see people ever reference my race before
(chinese) except when I was being bullied as a very young kid. But
now both flirts and insults focus on it a lot more often. I won't
go into specifics on that point but needless to say it is very
weird and raises some questions about how the average person
thinks.
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From: Forestier
, 103 months, post #99 |
Thanks for these answers.
Making categories doesn't mean things are binary, Hysteria. It only
means they are diverse.
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From: guest (Kathie)
, 103 months, post #100 |
Oh, Hysteria, I am probably not nearly as confident as I sound. All
I typed above comes from my brain... every once in a while my heart
says "am I sure that I couldn't have made it work?" In other words,
the doubts pop up, but all the evidence shows that I didn't do the
wrong thing. I have come to the conclusion that most of the doubt
is lingering remnants of being raised as a boy for as many years as
I was combined with the the *irrefutable* evidence (my own body)
that I was a boy. That's not something you can wipe out of your
brain in just a few years. For a while there, I wondered if there
was any way that I could self-induce amnesia in some way because
the worst part of my life right now is the memories of how I grew
up. There's no way to summarize it short of "hell".
It always astounds me that anyone ever thought I had a choice in
this. It really annoys me when people call us (as they have so many
times in the Jenner stories) brave. I am not brave... I had no
choice. It might have been more brave to say and do nothing about
this and just drive my car off a cliff or something -- and might
have been easier for those around me (including my parents and my
then finance) to deal with. When someone calls me "brave", I get
angry because it's clear that they have no clue what my choices (or
lack thereof) were and what I was going through. Romanticizing
transsexualism is, to me, like romanticizing the nazi prison camps.
I would never wish this on anyone.
So... lots of people like to dream and fantasize about this and
"what fun it would be." I would much rather have been "normal." I
probably would have married, had kids, had a successful career
(instead of spending a lot of mental energy dealing with these
issues). But, I had what I had, did the best I could with the cards
I was dealt and may very possibly die alone -- but less miserable
than trying to force-fit myself into the role that my physical
makeup said that I should play.
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